It's really happening. I am going back to work tomorrow. When Gwen was first born, 12 weeks felt like forever and suddenly it's here. I had so many people tell me that you have to go back to work right when it seems they're starting to really interact with you, and that's no lie. Sometimes all it takes is saying "hi" to Gwen and she flashes me a smile. It absolutely melts my heart. Her personality is starting to shine and we have become pretty good at reading her cues. Like if you put her blankie up to her face and she grabs it and rubs it against her eyes then she's tired. She has great communication skills *smile.
I have found myself feeling ready for this day and then the next hour I have tears running down my cheeks thinking that I will go 10 hours without hearing her "voice", seeing her smile, feeling her soft skin and kissing her definitely-filling-out cheeks. I think I'll even miss changing her diapers. I have cherished the last 12 weeks with her, and I'm so thankful I've had this time with our daughter.
I could go on and on about all the things I'll miss, but instead I'm going to try and focus on the things I have to look forward to and just a few of the
things for which I am thankful...
1. Having a job! And a job that isn't stressful and doesn't require time away from my family.
2. Coworkers I enjoy being around. You know who you are! I love the broad mix of people and the different ways they all enrich my life.
3. A boss I get along with and have learned so much from. She and I work very well together.
4. A husband who is amazing with Gwen and definitely has "the touch". She just adores him.
5. Frozen meals in my freezer - thank you to our moms and my sister! Those will be so nice while we adjust to our new schedule.
6. Finding a wonderful, trustworthy daycare provider within 5 minutes of our house.
7. Twelve weeks FILLED to the brim with some of the most amazing and trying moments of my life thus far.
8. Me time on the bus. I won't know what to do with myself - ha.
9. Having evenings to look forward to for family walks and dinners and extra snuggles.
10. Being PART-TIME! I am beyond thankful that my boss agreed to the change in my schedule so I can spend more time with my precious babe.
I have found myself feeling ready for this day and then the next hour I have tears running down my cheeks thinking that I will go 10 hours without hearing her "voice", seeing her smile, feeling her soft skin and kissing her definitely-filling-out cheeks. I think I'll even miss changing her diapers. I have cherished the last 12 weeks with her, and I'm so thankful I've had this time with our daughter.
I could go on and on about all the things I'll miss, but instead I'm going to try and focus on the things I have to look forward to and just a few of the
things for which I am thankful...
1. Having a job! And a job that isn't stressful and doesn't require time away from my family.
2. Coworkers I enjoy being around. You know who you are! I love the broad mix of people and the different ways they all enrich my life.
3. A boss I get along with and have learned so much from. She and I work very well together.
4. A husband who is amazing with Gwen and definitely has "the touch". She just adores him.
5. Frozen meals in my freezer - thank you to our moms and my sister! Those will be so nice while we adjust to our new schedule.
6. Finding a wonderful, trustworthy daycare provider within 5 minutes of our house.
7. Twelve weeks FILLED to the brim with some of the most amazing and trying moments of my life thus far.
8. Me time on the bus. I won't know what to do with myself - ha.
9. Having evenings to look forward to for family walks and dinners and extra snuggles.
10. Being PART-TIME! I am beyond thankful that my boss agreed to the change in my schedule so I can spend more time with my precious babe.
Those are just a few things I'm thankful for. I'd type forever if I tried to document every.single.thing, but those are the big ones. God has proven himself good over and over again, and I know He will walk this road with us as well.
There is, indeed, a first time for everything, including leaving your child for the first time with someone other than family. There's also a first time for this new mom to reach deep within herself and find the strength needed to wake up tomorrow morning, get herself and her daughter dressed (in something other than sweatpants) and out the door, drop that treasure of a child off at daycare, wipe her tears and make her way to downtown Minneapolis. It will be a transition for sure, but we'll figure it out. Eventually. And Gwen will have fun with Miss Kathy and make lots of new friends. I'm excited for her. As much as I love her, I know she needs more than me as a friend *smile. And I'll look forward to our Tuesdays and Fridays more now than ever before!
I can.not.wait. to see these two tomorrow night...
Praying for a smooth first day back, sweet sister. Loved your list of things you're thankful for :)
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